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I'm cleaning. I hate cleaning. It makes me feel completely lost, buried in all these things i have accumulated. And worse, i'm not even cleaning because i want to, or because i feel overwhelmed by my mess, or because anyone i care about is coming.
I'm cleaning because tomorrow people are going to come and invade my space and tear out the old rickety window by my chair to replace it with a new one. It's not that it pisses me off that we paid the heating bill for an apartment full of drafty windows through a cold winter. And it's not that i like my old rickety window or its accompanying rattles and drafts. It's that my room is so small and there's a chair and a lamp and an ottoman between the window and the world, and all those things will have to move to accomodate a workman. It's more like i like my space, and i don't like people coming into my space and tearing it up, even for what should eventually be counted as an improvement. For that to happen, i have to clean.
Not sure how tomorrow's going to go, really. They're supposed to replace windows in all the bedrooms, the kitchen, the livingroom and bath. Every room in the house, essentially. The part that worries me is that the bathroom window is in the shower, and we are all pretty fucking sure that the shower wall is entirely rotten beneath. So i have a rather justified fear that they're going to try and take out the window and half the wall will just crumble beneath the stress, leaving a gaping hole in our apartment.
Of course, my roommates have thoughtfully left me here alone to deal with it. Oh how i don't want to live here anymore.
On another sort of cleaning note, thinking of changing some of my lj icons out to match my dw set, which i overall like better.
I'm cleaning because tomorrow people are going to come and invade my space and tear out the old rickety window by my chair to replace it with a new one. It's not that it pisses me off that we paid the heating bill for an apartment full of drafty windows through a cold winter. And it's not that i like my old rickety window or its accompanying rattles and drafts. It's that my room is so small and there's a chair and a lamp and an ottoman between the window and the world, and all those things will have to move to accomodate a workman. It's more like i like my space, and i don't like people coming into my space and tearing it up, even for what should eventually be counted as an improvement. For that to happen, i have to clean.
Not sure how tomorrow's going to go, really. They're supposed to replace windows in all the bedrooms, the kitchen, the livingroom and bath. Every room in the house, essentially. The part that worries me is that the bathroom window is in the shower, and we are all pretty fucking sure that the shower wall is entirely rotten beneath. So i have a rather justified fear that they're going to try and take out the window and half the wall will just crumble beneath the stress, leaving a gaping hole in our apartment.
Of course, my roommates have thoughtfully left me here alone to deal with it. Oh how i don't want to live here anymore.
On another sort of cleaning note, thinking of changing some of my lj icons out to match my dw set, which i overall like better.
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I feel you. We had all the windows done and it was like AGH NO things are OKAY AS THEY ARE.
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