rui: (don't be crushed)
i will gladly stay an afterthought. ([personal profile] rui) wrote2011-01-24 02:43 pm
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Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.

1. Waited so long to get on antidepressants. I wasted a lot of time being nonfunctional during times that it really would've behooved me to have my shit more together. Not that most people in their teens and early twenties actually have their shit together, but i definitely could've done better.

2. Gone to the college i did. On one hand, it really shaped who i am as a person. On the other, i feel like that decision did me a grave disservice in terms of preparation for the real world and assistance assimilating into it. I could have gone ivy, but i didn't, and as much as it was of educational and philosophical benefit to me to do what i did, in the practical career sense it was a really bad move. I should also have studied something that might've actually been helpful in obtaining a job someday. Basically, i'd like a redo of that entire four years.

3. Let him back into my apartment.

4. Given up on wanting to write. Poetry, especially. I still feel cowardly and cop-out-ish about it, but the drive is gone. That probably means it was never something i could have done in the first place.

5. ...i'm really having trouble coming up with these. Not that i don't have regrets, but they're usually things i haven't done, not things I have.

6. idk guys idk :/ maybe i will come back.